People die. That's what we do. But it always sucks. Both of my grandparents are already gone. Not being able to be there for them (in Finland) sucks so bad. Wtf. Doubt I've ever been so sad in my entire life.

On another note... Sobriety sucks ass and drugs & alcohol are awesome.

I hope I fucking die. Maybe shit will get better once I start doing something. But what to do? Lord only knows. And fuck Lord. So no one knows. Tired of experimenting with shit. Nothing works and I feel like nothing ever will.

I'm a restless spirit and one thing will not satisfy me for long.

The year is almost over. What have I done with myself? Absolutely nothing. A whole year wasted. Ugh. <__________> GOTTA DO SOMETHING ASAP HOLY FUCK.

I got the Best Fucking Pin ever.

Walking by the police station. (Always hilarious.)

Cop: Yeah... New Street Gang... Watch out for the running hatchet man.

I had to stop and laugh at him. Cops are so fucking stupid. So are ICP fagz.

Dude thought I was my friend's boyfriend. One of my prouder moments. Everyone always thinks I'm a boy.

Payed my court shit. A bit late, but it's payed. And I'm broke again.

NEED TO GET A JOB.

My baby goes to court in two weeks and that bastard better get out. I fucking miss him a whole helluva lot.

Eastern Female Highschool

A Baltimore City Landmark since 1976 and declared one of Baltimore’s “architectural gems” in a March 8, 2002 Baltimore Sun editorial, this 1869-1870 Italianate-style, red-brick and white-trim structure is the city’s oldest surviving purpose-built public school building. It is also a memorial to the post-Civil War expansion of secondary education opportunities in Baltimore. The school is listed on the National Register of Historic Places and has appeared on the Register’s travel itinerary of historic sites in Baltimore. The building was renovated and converted into apartments in the 1970s. Baltimore City transferred the building to Sojourner-Douglass College in 2004. It continues to stand boarded up and vacant.

MUSIC: I never have it and I need it. All the time. The only thing that makes me feel alright for a few beautiful minutes, at least.

Life is fucking tiring. Never enough rest. Never ANY rest.

I just need to DO SOMETHING. It's so simple. It's right there. I just need to reach out and take it. Go for the gold, etc.

but i'm a lazy sonofabitch. moar coffee then we'll talk.

So yesterday on the bus, a couple fifteen year olds.

Girl: Is that a girl?
Boy: Nah.
Girl: (COMES UP TO ME AND LOOKS.) That is a girl! I feel sorry for her.
Me: HhHahAHAHAHAHAHAomglol.

other than that i am sad.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

I miss my baby. Wtf. Fucking hate cops. Locking people up for not doing shit. And judges for keeping the same dumb ass bail that the commissioner set. Shit's fucking stupid. Justice my fucking ass.

I'm all the fuck alone.

All the fuck alone. Girl friends ain't shit. Too worried about boys. Wanna be with boys that AIN'T SHIT all the time, that treat them like SHIT until they want sex, and these bitches JUMP to please these assholes. And I'm just left like, wtf, you invited me over, then asshole shows up and I'm left ALL THE FUCK ALONE listening to you guys fuck.

Stupid.

so i stepped into a storm drain, blood everywhere. staples are awesome.
then i cut off my pinky toe nail. wtf HOW?
then allergies = swollen face. recovering atm.

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